Sunday, June 27, 2004

A long wait to the end of holidays has finally ended...

And welcoming us is the block tests!!!

ARGH!!!

Good luck to everybody who will be taking block test tomorrow!!!

Friday, June 25, 2004

Wah... Today's morning match is really really exciting... And as I have predicted, Portugal won! BUT WHY DIDN'T THEY WIN IN THE FIRST 90 MINUTES?!?! MY 30 BUCKS ON A PORTUGAL WIN JUST WENT BUST!!! ARGH!!!

This prompts me to watch the France vs Greece match later as it will be exciting... Or somewhat?

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Haiz... Feel rather sian during the holidays, and since I discovered that I haven't studied much for BT, I feel even more sian... What to do leh? I still got a competititon on Saturday loh... so that day is gone liao... leaves me with 3 more days for me to revise...

Saturday, June 19, 2004

Wah... I just had this discussion with PYH on where to go to eat for a farewell for Weixin... So deciding over Changi Village Curry Fish Head cum zi char or Marina Steamboat... Apparently we have set on the CVCFH... and I'm salivating now liao loh... Wah lao to think that I have never eaten nice dishes like zi char or restaurant dishes very hungry now liao... And look at the time? 12.30AM!!! Can't sleep liao loh... And tomorrow still have to wake up early in the morning to fetch my brother back from India and subsequently the bridge competition... Haha.. guess my stomach has to tahan a little more longer... Maybe until after BT!!!

Friday, June 18, 2004

Congratulations to Weixin!!! After much efforts being spent for years in Bio he finally got into the IBO team which many people would like to... Haha actually I would also like to but no luck... IBO experience should be forever memorable...

Hmmm... Tomorrow is the much-looked-forward-to bridge competition... But I don't really view it as a competition anyway... Guess I won't talk too much. Will leave it until after the competition.

Today must sleep early... Would I?

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Yay!!! Camp finally ended!!! It's so fun... Too bad it is my last camp liao. Then it is bridge competition 3 days later. Sianz... I think I need to catch some sleep now.

Bridge competition... Aiyah I think I just settle my pairing with Yong Hui/Perry bah. Hope to get better though. But then still can do what leh? What's more important is I enjoy my game with Yung Hei to play with our opponents. Hopefully can play with Yexing and Kar Seng they all. And the TPJC pair. Or Tang Ning. Hopefully. This competition is supposed to be fun, and I don't want to spoil the fun. Can eat while playing bridge loh... Not many competitions have this feature... Play in such a relaxed environment... Haha.... Think I shall have fun bah...

After seeing a person with such carefree attitude during the camp I myself am also quite a bit inspired by not worrying about so many things already. It is so tiring, but some things are just beyond your control, and even if you can control you can only do little about it. Of course not everything also must bo chap lah.. But must put in your best effort then xin1 an1 li3 de2 liao...

In the camp I'm quite touched by somebody who said something to me, and I'm also quite surprised to hear that. He said I am like a role model to him, because he see me always put in my best effort in doing everything, be it playing or solving problems. Especially in the puzzle hunt. I don't know how I give him this impression... Maybe because I'm very interested in the puzzle hunt in the whole camp besides the standard problem solving sessions so I put in extra effort in solving the puzzles and solved them. Or maybe because I was mostly seen whacking the problems we are supposed to do everyday, writing whole loads of equations and numerical data and words and trying to make sense and solve them...

But I'm quite touched lah. Maybe if you are really interested in something you really go all out to do it. That's why I have been arguing with Yi Jin about the bridge pairings I have got. But I have stopped because it turned out to be quite futile and I don't want to waste my efforts on this thing as there are more important things for me to attend to, like block test and the special round of SMO on the 26h. Maybe I give up because I view the competition as a fun rather than a real tournament...

But then perhaps this level of interest has driven me to doing something which fwe people could think about. I have identified only a few things I'm very interested (or even crazy about), Math, bridge and buses. For Math I would like to solve them, for buses I would go and know all about their routes, the models and even collecting all the bus service guides. I view bridge not only as a recreation but as a hobby, although it has only been developed quite recently and I hope I can extend this interest into the university. But other than this I can't find anymore. Even studies I don't have much interest in it I must admit...

After the camp I also found out that studying Math as a major can extend your opportunities to many areas. If I don't remember correctly one of the people major in Math became a computing biologist, the other one a financial analyst. And more can go into the fields of economics, sciences and computing. Many things are actually related to Math, so I may reconsider my choice to go into engineering...

Don't know why but I felt today I quite hyper, maybe because I just came back from the camp and I haven't touched the computer for 6 days, so just feeling to regain the touch... Haha... Maybe I would consider watching soccer later at the coffeshop??? Haha.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Yeah!!! Tomorrow is SIMO camp!!! SIMO camp rox loh... Can have fun in the next 6 days yet can enrich my maths even further... Haha!!!

Come to think of it, I think Maths is really fun... I mean like those olympiad problems almost all can solve in 3 or 4 steps like that although it looks quite hard... Then once you solve you feel a sense of achievement. Maths S still can lah... Keeps telling you to prove something one... I still remember got a few 7-8 mark question in Maths S that I proved in 4 or 5 steps and still searching for where I missed out... Aiyah proving questions all like that one... But a few questions are rather challenging. But overall Maths S is still an interesting paper. Then A level Maths DAMN SIAN lah... Need to memorise formulae and solving methods... Mathematical Induction also need to memorise what exactly to write... Then 4-5 mark questions need to write so long to get the full marks, needless to say those 8-9 mark questions. I always say statistics is not my bowl of rice or cup of tea or whatever... but statistics really need to memorise a lot of things and I feel damn sian... Too techincal liao lah... Mechanics still better I think...

Eh sorry leh if you all think I KB too much, but then I really struggling with A level Maths now lah... keep cannot get A for my F Maths... And physics and chemistry... Then I think A level emphasise too much on answer rather than solution... Don't know block test how...

Think I need to work harder liao...

Think I should pack up liao...

Think I should not be talking further or else think will kena beaten by other people...

Thinking...

No blogging for the next 6 days!!!

Euro 2004 is coming!!!

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Strange leh... Yesterday I kind of sian diao, but after sleeping a whole night I actually forgot all about it already. Then today went to watch tu1 ran2 fa1 cai2. It is really a very good movie, but most of my friends around me all rated it quite badly. Don't know lah, but I sort of like local movies, especially those by Jack Neo's one. Quite funny, and you rarely get to see movies with Hokkien dialect in it. Then always got "educational value" some more.

Back to my afternoon nap.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

I really had enough of this thing called "selection tests" liao loh... Is it because our country follows this system called meritocracy so we must look at results to choose who is the best? Selection test is not the actual competition, but if the selection test will affect how well you will do during the actual competition or even if you can enter the competition, won't it be unfair if somebody very good flops and somebody very lucky performs very well? Even consistency won't help in this case because the score for each session is independent of each other loh. So what if you perform very well in the selection test? It says nothing! Well it does say something to somebody who believes in using the result to gauge people, or say something to people who are forced to do this, but does it mean that we should forgo every effort before that?

Maybe I took things too seriously, everything also must win or do well. Even now as I played Gunbound I would also think of strategies of winning the opponent. It really affects me very much when others can affect my chances of winning. If increase I still don't mind, but if the game is dependent on luck and other people then I feel a bit uncomfortable, especially when a game can decide if you can win or lose. Why would I do something with somebody when I know that person will greatly affect our team's ability. That's why when I do something I must do it with somebody I feel comfortable so that I would not be disappointed when I give in all my best and we still eventually failed. However, if I do something with somebody I don't feel uncomfortable with I really don't feel uncomfortable I guess I won't be able to perform and have much fun.

What is the purpose of doing something when we are not having fun out of it? I seriously don't want to go there and go back home thinking I have wasted some hours of my life without gaining anything at all loh. By saying this I mean I didn't even gain any fun out of it lah.

Well, but a lot of this we can't control. I MEAN WE REALLY CAN'T CONTROL! Our fate lies on other people's hands, even if we put in our best efforts, be it luck or other people. That's why I think life sucks. IT SUCKS! Because in most of our life we won't be able to decide what we want, but we are forced to accept something we are uncomfortable with because either the results say so or the person who decides that thing will benefit or will simply be happy! So I gather in life you cannot make too many enemies or you will suffer for most of your life.

Now how about friends? If there is a situation which one party must be unhappy who will be the one. Would you like your friend to be the one who is uncomfortable with or would you sacrifice. What about a compromise which will make both parties unhappy? I seriously think I have had enough of all this liao loh.. Maybe I really had nothing to do in the holidays so I keep thinking of all these problems which seem rhetorical and will keep going in circles... Perhaps some of you out there will tell me to live life simpler simply by not thinking about this, but I don't know what is a simpler life...

Sorry for ranting too much in this blog but perhaps now is holidays so all these troubles come up to trouble me. You know when term starts schoolwork is the major thing to worry about so these things rarely come into mind. When they come into mind it must be around night and after sleeping another hectic day comes again. But now, these things come back to haunt me again and more of such situations have come to affect my mood. And these situations have made me uncomfortable and I can't do anything to improve the situations. They are set already, and I am sad. Now I should forget about these things and continue with life. But I can't. How?

I seriously think I am a perfectionist who doesn't have the capabilities to achieve what I want to achieve. That's why I am sad. Or is it because the people around all can perform better than me, so I have the impression that I am the weaker lots, and I can't stand out of people. Or am I too slack?

Yay!!! Yesterday marks a wonderful day with our class BBQ... All those chicken wings, prwans... BBQ until don't know what shape liao... But still had a lot of fun, especially before that we had tennis, badminton, pool, soccer...

But then after the whole thing always have post-excitement blues... Yesterday so hyper... Today feel damn sian liao... Then think of after holidays must cheong A levels even more sian... But compulsory one.. So sad.

Still got things to look forward to during the holidays:
11-16 June: Maths Camp
19-20 June: Bridge Competition

But somehow I think the bridge pairings sux. Don't know lah. Just feel that on that day we cannot maximise the score. Then very sad liao. I really believe yijin/kok hao pair is one of the lousiest pair lah...

Sunday, June 06, 2004

Haiz... I feel so damn sian today... no mood to do anything because I didn't do what I planned to do today because I slept too much! The feeling is really damn sian loh... Sigh... Don't really want to say I'm too tired because it hasn't reached my limit yet... Has my mind really started to lose control over my body since coming to JC...? NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! Haiz.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

Today a bit the sian... So decided to tell a story... Very original one... Dreamt about it for like 3 hours in my afternoon nap...

Long before your time, in the southern province of China...

There are 3 "gu1"s, namely ba3 lu1 gu1, oh1 ni1 gu1 and shen1 gu1 also know as seh1 gou1 . One day, they met 6 "po2"s, namely lao3 tai4 po2, huang2 lian3 po2, mei2 po2, san1 ba1 po2, lao3 po2 and wo3 bu4 dong3 hai2 you3 shen3 me4 po2.

These san1 gu1 liu4 po2 began to talk crap. From north pole talk to south pole and back to north pole again, and from Atlantic Ocean talk to Indian Ocean talk to Pacific Ocean and back to Atlantic Ocean again. Then they found thenselves back at the same old place. So they very buay song and don't know when they will talk finish.

Now, the mothers of the the "gu1"s and the "po2s" came. So gu1 ma1 and po2 po2 ma1 ma1 come and look for them, not knowing where they have gone for such a long time. When they arrive, they found that they have new topics already! So they became to talk crap again.

Just when they are going to talk non-stop, lao3 gong1 came, and called 995. So 11 ambulances came and they used 11 stretchers to carry the 11 gu1 po2 into the 11 ambulances. No more talk cock session from then on.

Sian.