Friday, October 31, 2003

Hey I blogged immediately after I came back so that I won't forget what to blog. After a very very sudden and heavy rain, suddenly I saw the whole row of trees sprouting light green ferns on top of them, rows and rows of them by the roadside. It is so spectacular when I looked down my flat, as the colour contrasted with the dark green leaves beneath them. I see it as sudden because yesterday they weren't there! *sweat* Anyway if anybody is interested they can come to my house and have a look.

Thursday, October 30, 2003

Hmmm... I was expecting nothing serious to happen today, but guess what. I LOST MY BAG!!! My "Tampines My Best Home" bag. Suddenly gone! I was at the auditorium for Chem lecture, and I went out for the break, and I came back for the CT session to find my bag gone!!! Totally no mood for the oral presentation immediately after that! But I still managed to find my bag in the classroom which I had gone prior to the Chem lecture. So there goes without saying that I didn't even bring my bag into the auditorium at all!!! And to think that some of my classmates even claimed that they saw me carrying my bag out of the auditorium during the break...

What an exciting day for me. I actually had a paper plane competition for my Physics practical. My group won 2 out of 4 categories. Well, if not for my glider which suddenly took a nose dive, we could have... Well done!

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

Haiz... Why am I always the unlucky one... Total marks for GP for the whole year: 54 = C6!!! Not 50, 51, 52, 53 BUT 54!!! Its just like playing daidee with 4,5,6,7 but no 3 and 8. I can't achieve the lower end, yet I also can't go for the next range!!! It's so frustrating to see that a stumble in the Promos cause you to fall from a B4 to a C6 grade.

Oh yeah, I was caught playing bridge during PW when the ST went off to take something. NO I WASN'T PLAYING BRIDGE!!! We wanted to play bridge, but then someone took my place and so I let her play. Due to some lapse of concentration we were too late to keep the cards before she discovered us playing. So confiscate loh. Then she gave a big scolding to the whole class.

(Decide that this part would be censored)

Ok I admit it is my fault. It is all my fault. My fault for playing cards, my fault for getting a C6 in GP, my fault for failing in a lot of things. I CAN'T BLAME ANYBODY!!! Some parties may bear some responsibilities, BUT ULTIMATELY IT'S STILL MY RESPONSIBILITY!!! Sorry that my blog has become a medium of ranting...

I really learnt a lot in my JC life, I hope, I think so, far more than in secondary school, where I learnt through activites, but in JC I learnt through failures. But I don't know. I really hope this feeling does not come about because I failed too many times such that this has become a consolation cum hypnotizing cum escape-from-reality remark. Because as my essay comments have said, "I believe you know that no matter how many times a bird may fall, with enough perserverance, its wings will soon strengthen sufficiently for it to soar high and fly far." If a bird fall too many times its jing1 mai4 will break irreversibly and it would not be able to fly anymore!!! Sigh...

This is reality. If I don't accept this, what should I accept? While trying to forget the events, I still have to prepare for PW oral presentation and potential S-paper appealing. So stressed. I try not to stress myself out, but with such results, it is inevitable that I will feel stressed. Of course I haven't reached the stage that I go around relieving my stress through extreme methods like venting my anger, and I tell myself I won't do that, because that is being purely irrational!!!

No more talking about stress. I'm not the type of person who likes to bring stress wherever I go or whatever I do. I also don't want to talk about PW and all those things which we cannot change. All I need to do is to commit my best in everything. I have done my best for this Promos already, so I have nothing to blame.

But should I give more than my best next time, or is my ability capped at this level?

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Oh I'm just back from my grandmother's birthday celebrations, although I must constantly remind myself that this will cause me to stay up very late to do my PW presentation. Whoa, really ate very good food, sumptuous meal for me. Where? Some Seng Kang coffeeshop which boasts a very good zi2 char4 stall. Their curry fish head and claypot fish head is DAMN ZAI!!! But their crab tastes like crap. No taste one. So next time if you are inspired to go and eat zi2 char4 at night you can try some dishes over there. The Pork Ribs King there is also not bad.

So on our way back, we met with a very anti-US taxi-driver, kept on saying US always has tricks up their sleeves, and they are trying to make Singapore their base over at Southeast Asia since no other countries wants to cooperate with them. Nice points, nice examples, but very agitated. To the extent that he never focuses on driving. Ended up I have to direct him to turn at the junctions. NOBODY ASK HIM TO TALK ONE WHAT!!! HE DON'T TALK NOBODY WILL SAY HE IS DUMB LOH!!! Lame diao...

So I conclude that most taxi drivers actually resent US, as 2 out of the 3 recent cab drivers I have met talked bad about US... *lame*. Anyway I won't care about them as long as the influx of their culture do not have adverse effects on our life. Or do they?

Now back to my Powerpoint presentation...

ARGH!!!! WHY MUST THEY RELEASE GP RESULTS LAST?!?!?! I thought I can get 2 S papers with good grades from Promos, but then at this last critical moment I ACTUALLY GOT A C6 FOR MY GP!!! WTH!!! BIG PROBLEM!!! Super strict marker, filled my essay script with all the criticisms and comments. SHE GOT TOO MUCH TIME IS IT?! NIAO ME SOME MORE!!! Oh yeah I better view them as encouraging remarks...

"Interesting analogy and it is good food for thoughts, but what has this got to do with our education system?"
...
"I recognise the effort you put in."
...
"I believe you know that no matter how many times a bird may fall, with enough perserverance, its wings will soon strengthen sufficiently for it to soar high and fly far."

So touching... My wings are still insufficiently strengthened... So sad...

Sigh... When can I soar high in my English???

And what will hapen to my S paper appeals???

So many question marks in my head now...

Sunday, October 26, 2003

After studying for 9 months, yesterday was the day when I reap what I sow. And I found that I had not put in as much effort as others did, because my grades are not very good. So I better not talk about it.

There aren't a lot of things happening at school these few days, with topics hovering around PW or PO which is tomorrow. So school is rather boring nowadays. Perhaps this affects my mood to blog. So there aren't anything to blog recently. But then I better get something to do, or else I am going to just duo4 lou4 and yi4 jue2 bu2 zhen4. But then all talks are just no use. There should be some action...

Haiz...

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Long time never blog liao. Today's Open House was the most exciting one, but also the most boring one. Stayed in the Maths room waiting for all the prospective double Maths students to come for 7 hours!! And I can't even solve a simple cube (although I know how to solve Rubik's cube) But looking at the students solving mind-boggling questions and looking at their responses and facial expressions after knowing the answers amused me a little bit. What's more, today the Maths teachers all appeared so slack, fancy playing Mahjong and Freecell in the computer. They really got nothing to do loh.

And Physics Olympiad is approaching already. But then looking at Yeong Heng always pon the training sessions makes me a bit demoralising. But then that did not affect me lah. I wondered I can even get into the second round or not. The questions are really unpredictable. And immediately aftrer that will be PW. I don't think I will perform well. A will be best. Sigh.

This holiday I really found few things to do. So I just plan to max my CIP hours as well as preparing for the Olympiads to come while enriching myself with something I'm interested in.

Grrr... My thoughts aren't very organised today. Perhaps it is because of a long day I had and the numerous amount of intensive training in Physics I had. I figured if I had more interest in Physics this might not happen. But then I'm not a robot. Training for long hours still makes me tired. I just want to find some days when I can sleep long hours. Ahhhh...

I'm feeling damn tired...

Sunday, October 19, 2003

Haiz... Today supposed to mug at NUS Science Library, but then after lunch decided to go to Peng Kiat's house, so half of the day is just wasted like that.

I suddenly discovered that I don't have much to do during the holidays. I better go and find something to do, or else I will lag till death in the holidays.

PW sucks.

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Kaoz... Got scared out of the hell due to a nightmare, now sweating like hell... Cannot sleep liao.

Surf the Net loh, and I happened to remember the recent David Blaine's act, which is to starve himself for 44 days in a box. I don't know why the 44 days. Perhaps it is what he thinks is his limit. So I want to his site www.davidblaine.com and have a look. Was going through from the first to the sixth week. I found that as he goes on his journal consists more of his ailments due to starvation. Of course he did things inside, such as charity, but you know he could not have any interactions with the outside world. So I think after a month it's all mind over matter. It's more and more suffering. Up to today the 42nd day he had a risk of heart attack! What a stunt he did this time compared to the last 2 times.

However, what can he prove from this? I looked at his picture, and he still had some fats! If he succeeded, GOOD FOR HIM LOH!!! But look at the people in the poor countries, the millions of people in Ethiopia, Bangladesh, ... they are "bones-under-skin". So this shows that they are in constant hunger or starvation! So people who has food around them who are out to prove that they can starve has their purpose invalid, because their stand simply cannot stand. <--- This sentence has a little bit of problem in terms fo structure. That's what I think. Even if he does it, he will not be able to convince the people around them how tortourous is starvation, unless the person experiments it himself.

Oh yeah and some of the people in the forum says that those talking about he may die are all exaggerations. They just want to attract people to look at him, and does not want people to think that he did it so easily. Well, that may be a little bit blunt, but it is true to a large extent. But people will still be wowed by his accomplishment.

This reminds me of a recent activity carried out by the National Youth Council. They wanted to gather people to be "homeless" for one day, i.e. to sleep in the streets. However, it turns out to be a total failure, as people starts to sneak out to buy food at the nearby shopping centres (NYC is at Somerset). As it started drizzling, people abandoned their cardboard shelters which they have built and went into the shelter with nice blankets waiting for them to use. So at the end of the day 10 people went missing. What's more, they had a sumptuous packet dinner before going on to be homeless. Really loh, responses were bad and most commented that they have not felt anything. Not to mention that there are 17 CIP hours awarded to those who made it, from 3pm to 8am.

Sometimes it sets me thinking that one living in an environment with everything present really could not appreciate what is poverty. Unless they lack some important or suvival things everyday to them. This is why people complains when they want freedom or relaxation time due to a hectic lifestyle.

Haiz, so what can we do to help us realise other viewpoints of life? I guess exposure is the keyword.

And I am so damn sian now. Guess I sure cannot survive today one, and will surely feel asleep some point of time today.

Friday, October 17, 2003

Today is an uneventful day. I shall talk no further. Hehe.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Today morning really sian diao loh. Went to receive my paper, then I really didn't get in!!! Just as expected loh. But at least I got an alpha, which means I answered one question completely. It means an honourable mention in Maths, haha. But then i still stayed on for 4 hours to listen to the explanation of answers, while waiting for Zhao Xiong who got in so we can play badminton later. So sad. But expected lah...

Before we leave the school we went to the PE notice board to look at the schedule for the Festival of Sports. So I am playing against 62 and 7A for badminton, and 74 or A11 for basketball. So I set my own target for the Sports Festival.
1. Don't get thrashed 15-0, 15-0 in badminton.
2. Don't lose in the first round.
3. Don't lose until too embarassing.
Haha. I hope I can achieve the first at least...

Oh yeah, first time I visited Jervis's house. Condo rather. At least it is more prestigious than my house. Then we played tennis and finally badminton. 4 hours of sports! Now I have got some of my fats accumulated during the Promos gone... Haha.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

DIE LIAO!!! F MATHS!!! SO DAMN DIFFICULT!!! I shall not talk about it anymore.

Class outing is still the main focus for today. After the paper, we went to the class bench to wait for the PRCs to change. Then Ms Tan suddenly called us to go for PW. Sucks loh, such an anticlimax. Then ultimately only 3 PRCs came. There are only 9 people who went for the outing. Perhaps our class has too many couples already. So when one of them decides not to go, the other one also don't want to go. Sigh...

Then reach PS Pizza Hut at 1.30pm. saw Yifan eating with 2 girls there. I was like... Wow... Then 76 was hogging on to the seats. Then the waitress also didn't bother to serve us. What a bad restaurant with bad attitude. But too bad it is cheap compared to other restaurants. Then wait until 2pm. My stomach is really shouting at me to eat already. Eat until 3pm...

Then went up to cinema deciding to catch a movie. Then Fang Ting and Crystal decided not to watch, saying that they have no money. Then we lagged in front of the cinema contemplating where to go. 30 minutes passed... 1 hour massed.. 1.5 hours passed... Then they were still arguing!!! Then the PRCs decided to go since curfew time is approaching. Sux loh.

Then it is about 5pm. Go Macdonalds and buy a drink and talk cock until 6.30pm. Not to say, we went Heeren because I wanted to buy 2 CDs, The Moment and Zhou Hua Jian 15 years of songs. But then it is so expensive over there, so its better to buy from CD-rama. To add on, we watched Matrix Reloaded there, but then Xiang Min and I left early, and Zhao Xiong finished watching it, and finally we ended the day at 8pm. Wah lao, what a day wasted immediately after Promos. Super sian loh.

What's more, tomorrow I have to go back and collect my Physics Olympiad scripts. 8am some more! I know I won't get in loh, so it is such a waste of time. I DON'T FEEL LIKE WAKING UP SO EARLY TOMORROW!!!

I sincerely wish Pua Yeong Heng the best of luck in getting into the Pyhsics Olympiad team.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Ok. I declare 3pm as the end of my day. So first thing in the morning received SMS from Yung Hei that 4 of my officers got killed in the intel ops. Sian diao. I have no mood to do anything liao.

Nvm. Sheng4 bai4 nai3 bing1 jia1 chang2 shi4. So I will build up again...

Monday, October 13, 2003

Really not the lame, Today's chemistry is one of the most disgusting paper I have ever seen. I think I'm going to fail it. And today is really a bad bad day for with 3 big misfortunes happening on me.

1) Chem Paper sux.
2) Winnie was online when I am online. All intels turned fruitless.
3) Assassination failed. 50k agents killed. Sian diao.

Luckily, no paper tomorrow! I hope ming2 tian1 hui4 geng4 hao3.

Sunday, October 12, 2003

My brain has empty thoughts now. Very sian. What should I do?

Don't want to talk about tomorrow liao.

Saturday, October 11, 2003

I lost momentum. Yi2 shi4 wu2 cheng2 for the whole day. How to survive the last 2 papers?

Tomorrow is the last chance.

Friday, October 10, 2003

Yeah! Weekend is here, can finally slack for 2 days. Then prepare for 2 more papers.

Physics is quite OK lah, just as what Mr Ho said, it is very hard to fail, but also very hard to get A. But then I'm just aiming for above E. I just hope that Chem isn't that difficult. I'm aiming for Maths and Chem S Paper anyway.

It is rather monotonous in life these days, and the only thing really perks me up is while playing DW and TW. This is the only thing that I do which is not associated to books. Of course there is blogging but look at the relative time spent on thinking and writing and typing those two-liners.

I repeat what I said earlier: I really hope I can do well in Promos...

Thursday, October 09, 2003

Today Maths is quite OK, but then no chance of getting full marks.

Physics!!! Common Test get E and Block Test also get E. I must break the E barrier...

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

Ok... I shall conclude the day: GP sucks.

If anybody were to say they will fail their GP, I will fail even more badly.

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

The D-Day is here!!! Tomorrow is GP!!! My weakest subject!!! Morale killer!!! So sad.

I wish all people that they can do well in Promos!!!

Monday, October 06, 2003

Panic Panic. It was raining the whole day, and this dampens my spirit...

I finally started revision today, doing Maths C Promos 2002 paper AND GOT STUCK AT 2 QUESTIONS!!! Die liao. Then I went on to F Maths Promos 2020 paper AND GOT STUCK AT THE FIRST QUESTION!!! All my confidence gone liao. Sian diao. So didn't do much for the day.

My joke yesterday not very relaxing hor? Aiyah, my mind all on Promos, no time to think of a good joke. Will post it when insipiration comes...

Sunday, October 05, 2003

Weixin irritated me with a time bomb, while I irritated him with 30 SMSes. What happened after that? We still played badminton in the later afternoon. So moral of the story: Yuan1 yuan1 xiang1 bao4 he2 shi2 liao3... Haha

I SMSed my GP tutor that I need to see her tomorrow to get back my essay, and ask her about some doubts in my mind. And what I received was a call from her. "You ok or not? You seem very pessimistic. ... ... Don't stress out too much. Take care and study hard during these few days. Bye." Erm... I didn't know how I gave her that impression through SMS. Maybe this is different from my normal self during GP lessons? Zhen1 rang4 wo3 ti2 xiao4 jie1 fei1. Sigh.

You people out there working hard? Here is a relaxing joke for you. You all should have read it before anyway.

5 people died and went to heaven and met there. They started discussing how they die.

First person: I went home and caught my wife dressed scantily. And i saw 2 cups of coffee on the table. However, I look around the whole house but still couldn't catch the man. Hence I got so angry that I threw the whole cupboard down. Then I threw the refrigerator down too. Then I got a heart attack but the ambulance was stopped due to a fuss downstairs. So help was dalayed and I died.

Second person: I was walking casually on the streets when a cupboard suddenly hits me from nowhere...

Third person: I was minding my own business in a cupboard before someone suddenly lifted me up and threw the cupboard downstairs...

Fourth person: I was peering out of my window to see what was happening downstairs as I heard a loud noise of an object hitting below before a refrigerator hit me from above...

Fifth person: Apparently I froze to death during a free-fall...

Hope this will help you relax and better prepare for the upcoming Promos.

Cheers!!!

Thursday, October 02, 2003

Feel jaded. PW sucks. I have to submit third draft soon. Even my teacher complained about PW. But I hope we won't be the last batch to do this. Guinea pig and nothing achieved. Feel damn cake.

I have been aiming for some mugging sessions during weekends, especially Sunday. Squeezing inside the crowd at 11am and rushing to chop seats and studying for 5 straight hours, I will feel so fulfilled that day. Then go for a badminton session again with Zao Hiong and Weixin...

But that is 3 days later.

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Damn! I typed finish my entry for the day then the blogger CRASHED! My entry is gone! Here are the remains of my entry...

Today we had to write our penultimate essay of the year and everybody was busy writing until they did not want to go for assembly exceptme, because they said they did not want to waste time staying back to complete the essay and want to go home immediately. Why they so mug...

Today's CT session is a caring talk by our dear discipline mistress, saying that there has been an increasing number of students who were badly stressed out by the Promos. Actually I am also very stressed. But I don't think I will get to that limit, because I keep reminding myself not to get stressed.

Time World reaching a climax... very fun liao. Then I met like 11 Catholic High Sec 4s in the Dream World talking about strategies on how to beat top players when they still don't know how much damage a bomb does... Newbie jiu shi newbie.

Oh, a very important fact has been brought up during the CT session, that there is only 1.0 week or 7.0 days or 1.7x10^2 hours or 1.0x10^4 minutes or 6.0x10^5 seconds to Promos!!! So 2 more weeks to the end of Promos!!!

What should I do during the transition period after Promos?